Lord, don't chase me, I want to go back to modern times

That night I lay on the couch and vomited blood again, and the bright red splashed all over the bedding on the bed, which was shocking, so I brought a basin full of hot water. , "Bang Dang" fell to the ground, water spilled all over the ground.

"Master...you are coughing up blood..." She rushed forward and knelt down under the bed.I looked at her anxious look, and tightly grabbed her hand with a snow-white veil that was wiping blood from the corner of my lips, "Is it you...Zhitao...was it you! Only you touched that child... "

Zhitao's eyes were red and swollen, as if she had cried a lot, and now I questioned her again, tears dripping down again, "I'm sorry... master... this slave didn't intend to harm you, let alone your child... this slave really didn't want to hurt you." I want to kill you!"

Holding her hand began to tremble, tears filled my eyes, I cried and thought, it really is Zhitao!

I trusted her so much...but she betrayed me, I smiled coldly, "I was wrong... How can there be another... Chunrui in this world!"

I was stupid, to be deceived again and again, and Xinyue's betrayal still happened to Zhitao!Why did I forget, this is the palace, how could there be true feelings in the palace? !

Zhitao is Zhitao after all, no one is like Chunrui, no one...Zhitao heard this, her face turned pale, "Zhitao has always regarded you as her master, and never wanted to hurt you. But... a slave This time I really can't help myself..."

The blood-stained handkerchief in her hand fell to the bed, I let go of her wrist, picked up the handkerchief and held it tightly in my hand.

"When the First Prince died... I will never forget the blackness on his face... because before Huan died, he was exactly the same as him. Zhitao, Liancheng Yanping gave you that poison... so cruel, so cruel Ah!" The symptoms on the faces of the first prince and Yeluhuan at the moment before their death flashed through my mind, how similar they were.

"They said...Master, you know too much, and you must never be kept by the emperor's side, otherwise it will ruin their great affairs. So we used the eldest prince to frame you and let the emperor drive you away. The slave really didn't expect that It hurt your child...he actually pushed you away..." Zhitao lay on the ground, kowtowing her head continuously, the sound of 'dongdong' reverberating was particularly ear-piercing.

Soon his forehead was also broken, and the blood ran down his forehead to his cheeks.Seeing her like this, I laughed, tears dripped down my chest, and my chest was depressed, "You know? In my whole life, I have been abused, used by others, and watched people who are important to me leave one by one. I wanted to die, but today, I suddenly feel that I have no reason to live! Here, here, it hurts so much that I am about to die!" I hammered my chest hard with my hands, and then held the belt The bloody veil wiped away the tears on his face, and continued, "Although Xiao Huanzhi is not my child, he is an innocent little life. He is still in his infancy, and he doesn't understand anything. How can you have the heart to torture such a child? People say that the poison of a tiger does not eat its offspring, as a mother, Su Qiaoyun really has the heart to treat her child like this?"

Zhitao curled up, tears splashed down on the ground, spreading puddles one after another, "Su Qiaoyun didn't know that we would harm her child, the task assigned to her by the superior, as long as you go to the Palace of Thousand Birds, we Tricks can drive you out of the palace."

As soon as I heard this, I laughed even happier, so happy that I could support my body and get out of bed, Zhitao looked at me blankly, tears still dripping down.

I could see the sincerity in her eyes, the worry that couldn't be faked, and I knelt down to look at her.

"Okay, Su Qiaoyun wanted to harm me, and now she has harmed her own child!" I couldn't help laughing, and tears rolled down my face, "Why, I know you are going to deal with Xiao Jincheng... I didn't intervene, I just I want to give birth to this child safely, as long as it is born, I will leave and go far away, why don't you let me go! Why!" My voice was so shrill, and I squeezed Zhitao's shoulders tightly Constantly shaking and crying.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." Zhitao kept saying sorry to me, and kept apologizing.

"It's only three months...Can't you wait three months?" I slid my hands off her shoulders feebly, "You can't experience it when you see a dead baby come out of my womb with your own eyes. It feels like... that's my child!"

Xinyue and Chunlan hurried in when they heard my cries, "What's wrong, master? Master!"

The two of them helped me up when I was slumped on the ground, helped me back to the bed, and settled me down.

I stared blankly at the brocade tent, with my head buried in the quilt pillow, and tears fell silently.

It is because I am too cowardly, always scruples, and have reservations that lead to everything that happened today.

"Master, the child is gone and can be regenerated." Xinyue comforted me by making the bedding for me.

"It is said that nobleman Su is very wealthy, you are too careless." Chunlan's voice was a little reproachful, and even hid some optimism.

My eyes were still dull, but I spoke up, "Who wouldn't hurt someone? I would too, but I always believe that people are good at the beginning. They have their reasons for doing anything wrong. If they are hateful, there must be pity." Therefore, every time I do - things will not be too extreme, I will leave a way for them to survive. But why is my kindness in exchange for what in the end?"

"Master is right, people know their beginnings, and their nature is kind. But you also need to know that bad people are bad people after all, and they must be responsible for their own wrong things!" Xinyue helped Zhi Tao, who had been kneeling on the ground in pain, up , "Everyone must learn to be strong. If you are soft-hearted, you are destined not to be strong."

"You all step back." Right now, I just want to be alone, I'm so tired... really tired.

I wanted to keep the good memories of the seven days with Xiao Jincheng, give birth to the child smoothly, and leave this place of right and wrong, but God forbade it.God wants this man I love to personally destroy my only hope of living in this world, why can't you listen to my explanation?Why do you push me away so hard?Doesn't he even have time to listen to me say a few words?
Xiao Jincheng, since you don't want to listen to my explanation, and don't want to know everything, then let the misunderstanding continue. It's fair to trade my child for your child.

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Since the miscarriage, two months have passed suddenly like a white horse passing by.

Xiao Jincheng really didn't pursue the matter of Thousand Birds Palace last time, and didn't mention a word.And I didn't say a word, I kept my mouth shut and didn't explain. After two months of recuperation in the bedroom, he ordered people to bring a lot of supplements here every day, and I took them all.

I must take good care of my body. Only when I am healthy can I really stand up.And in the past two months, I found a reason for myself to survive, revenge.

For the child who died in my womb, I want to get it back ten times from all those who have hurt me.

And the culprit is the mastermind behind the tragedy of Qianniao Palace.

After several months of quiet thinking, what happened in Qianniao Palace that day is indeed unimaginable.

Liancheng Yanping is such a smart person, how could he put the obvious blame on the Palace of Thousand Birds, he has no brains when Xiao Jincheng?And Xiao Jincheng's reaction at the time was too much, so he couldn't see such an obvious blame?
How could I murder his child in front of so many people?But why did he pretend not to trust me again, and even pushed me away excitedly.Is he just playing?But why do you want to lay such a heavy hand, intentionally or unintentionally?
I would rather believe that it was unintentional, so that I can hate less.

What is Liancheng's purpose of leading the scene? It's really just to drive away

Evict me from the palace?He was always smart and would not do such a stupid thing.

I guess there are only two reasons. One, in order to murder Su Qiaoyun's child, I was used as a primer to confuse everyone's attention.

Second, as Zhitao said, I will ruin their affairs, in order to give me a warning.

I don't understand these two reasons. Su Qiaoyun loves this child so much, and if he murders him, isn't he afraid that Su Qiaoyun will turn against him and tell Xiao Jincheng everything?Or is it a punishment because she fell in love with Xiao Jincheng?Why are you warning me again?How can I affect their plans, I don't know anything at all.

The night wind was slightly cold, and I opened the window casually, and a chilly air spread all over my body, chilling.

No wonder it is so cold today, it turned out to be snowing.

This is the first auspicious snowfall this year, and the breath is diffuse, blurring the vision in front of the eyes, stretching out both hands to catch a few clusters of snowflakes like goose feathers, and it melts in the palm of the hand as soon as it falls.

It suddenly occurred to me that today is your birthday.

"I can't help it, I just want to see, how are you doing?"

"The first snow in the twelfth lunar month when the plum blossoms are in full bloom is my birthday...Nowadays, no one remembers my birthday." I muttered softly, watching the snow cover the dead branches, eaves and tiles, all white, refreshing .

I seem to see a man standing in the snow in the distance again, he looks at me deeply, always with a charming smile.

Huan, I can't even protect your blood, you must be blaming me.

"Master." Zhitao entered the bedroom covered in frost and snow, "Master Yemu, the county servant, was ordered by the emperor to paint the paintings for the ladies in the imperial garden. The paintings are amazing, as if they were real people."

"Lord Mu?" I retracted the somewhat cold hand stretched out of the window into my sleeve, and looked back at Zhitao. Now I still keep her by my side, maybe because of the sincere expression in her eyes, I gave her another chance .

"It's the 15-year-old civil and military champion Mu Tianyan."

"Promoted to be a servant of the county department in just a few months?" What does Xiao Jincheng mean by this?Transfer the power of the county to the training of Mu Tianyan?
Is this a disguised deprivation of Yeluqi's power?Concubine Jing willing?

"Zhitao, let's go to the Imperial Garden. I'm quite curious, is Master Mu's pen really as amazing as you say?"

After finishing speaking, I called Zhitao to dress me up, as if I hadn't dressed up carefully for a long time, but it was so strange to touch Luozidai again.