Lord, don't chase me, I want to go back to modern times

When Xiao Yiran mentioned Chunrui, Xiao Yue stopped talking. I guess there must be something behind it that I don't know, but I must figure it out, because I want Chunrui to be favored before We must protect her safety!
Mooncake Festival.

It was a cool autumn day, and the sun was shining warmly on my body, which made me feel very comfortable.

Although I heard from the servants that the emperor will spend this festival with Mrs. Ya today, no one is allowed to disturb me, but Chunrui and I still got up early and waited for the emperor's arrival in the courtyard of Xinyue Palace. Chunrui was very nervous, the hands that told me to stay together kept twisting together, the joints turned white, and her face was bloodless.

It was the first time I saw her so nervous.

Since when did Xiao Jincheng's position in her heart become so deeply rooted?
I looked at the closed door, and memories flooded into my mind like a spring. Every word he said once resounded so clearly in my ears, and I only married one wife in this life. Just a promise.

What I did today was not only for Chun Rui, but also for myself. I wanted to see how much place the word An Huai Xin could have in his heart.

The night was low and the moon was high. We waited and waited until I was tired, while Chunrui stood in the courtyard and stared blankly. Still watching obsessively.

He's really not coming?Or did Xiao Yiran not give him the letter?Or did he not understand?
In an instant, I resolutely rejected the third possibility. The word An Huaixin was clearly written in that letter, and it was impossible for him not to see it.

That leaves the first two!

"Anxin, we..." Chunrui finally looked away and looked at me, as if she had given up.

"The emperor is here—" a high-pitched shout broke the sad atmosphere, Chunrui and I knelt down to salute, he gave us a faint look, and waved us to get up.

"An Lian is obsessed with Huaicheng and dies, and what he wants is what he wants." Xiao Yiran's voice was very weak, and after reading it lightly, he looked at Chunrui, "You have spent so much time and trouble to use her name to lure me to the end." For what purpose?"

"Your majesty, please go into the room and talk with your empress." I immediately interrupted the conversation, the current Chunrui's words are all in vain, only after entering that room can I continue.

Xiao Tatian stared at me for a while with his sharp eyes, and finally retracted his gaze, his deep eyes were full of disappointment, "If you have anything to say, just say it here, Mrs. Ya is waiting for me."

"Your Majesty, the night is very cold, please come into the room." Chunrui gave me a timid look and begged in a low voice.

He took a deep breath, a trace of impatience flashed across his face, he pondered for a moment, and finally moved towards the front room. I trotted in front of him and opened the door for him.

"Squeak—" a soft sound spread through the empty inner courtyard.A green light suddenly appeared in the room, and the originally gloomy courtyard was instantly surrounded by green fireflies.

Xiao Jincheng stepped into the threshold in surprise, staring around without blinking, not knowing what he was thinking.

Immediately after the fainting, a few fireflies flew out from the inside, as if they were finally free, they flew out urgently, spreading far away to hide.

"Your Majesty, the house full of fireflies was captured by the empress who exhausted her efforts in the past few days. The empress said that each of these fireflies is a wish. No matter where her benefactor goes, whether it is life or death, she wishes her You can come back to see the emperor, and see her!" Although my voice was small, every word was powerful.

Although my face is very calm, if you listen carefully, you will definitely hear the suppressed tremor in my voice.

Every word in these words is like a knife, stabbing me constantly, and it is already bloody at this time.

But the two people in front, er, were shocked at the moment they appeared in these fireflies, and didn't pay attention.

"Will she see it?" Xiao Jincheng withdrew his shocked eyes, looked back at me, but quickly turned his eyes to Chunrui, and could clearly see that his eyes no longer had the indifference before!

Chunrui nodded when she heard the words, "In the heart of my concubine, the lady is my benefactor. Although today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, I believe that the lady will enjoy the bright moon with us. The lady is naturally jovial, so That's why I asked the emperor to come here, and let my lady and I accompany the emperor to spend tonight." Her voice was choked up, with tears and deep guilt.

If I raised my head at this moment, I might be able to see Chunrui's guilt-ridden eyes sweeping over me, but at this moment, I can no longer raise my head to look at the two most important people I have ever had!

After a long time, after knowing Xiao Jincheng's sigh, I lowered my head and slowly exited, and closed the door smoothly, giving them a chance to be alone quietly.

The door was closed slightly, and finally closed tightly, blocking me and Xiao Jincheng.

My fingers pinched deeply into the crimson vermilion wooden door, why, I had already thought about it clearly when I did this, but why did it still hurt.

This is from my former Chunrui. Since I owe it, I should pay it back, right?

Letting go of her clenched hands, she turned around and wanted to leave, but she heard Chunrui's voice from inside, "Your Majesty, can I love you instead of Miss?"

I smiled, bitter tears rolled down the corners of my eyes, yes, let her replace me, I believe, Chunruihui is better than me, I let go, Xiao Jincheng, I have completely let go!

Nuan Nuan, is this the fate you arranged for An Huai Xin?Although I know this is what I have to accept, but, mother, it really hurts!
The lake is rippling, and the westerly wind blows all over the garden.

I sat alone on the cold stone steps outside the gate of Xinyue Palace. At this time, I dare not stay in the inner courtyard. I was afraid that I would rush in because I couldn't stand it. Tonight is not only the disappearance of Xiao Jincheng, but also the disappearance of the man in white .

I pinched my fingertips deeply into the palm of my hand, but I didn't feel any pain. I used to think I didn't care because I knew it was the fate of the characters. I could smile and watch them happy, but I found that I was wrong, wrong Outrageous.

It turned out that An Huaixin was still remembered by him and loved by him. I should be happy. I forcibly changed An Huaixin's fate. I forcibly stuffed the second female lead into the hero's heart, but I can't be happy.

Now I finally understand that sentence, the most heartbreaking thing in the world is not going up to the poor and falling into the underworld, nor is it between life and death, but that I stand in front of you and you no longer recognize me.

But who can I blame, because I want to change my face, isn't it exactly what I want if he doesn't recognize me?
"The advent of what love is……"

The sad mood was interrupted by this sentence, I looked at Yeluqi who was leaning against the high wall with a confused face, "You still have the nerve to read such a vulgar poem in front of me." I snorted softly and choked hard. said to him.

"Then what should I say? Love-things are the most beautiful thing in the world?" Yeluqi laughed, deliberately asking for the word "love-things".

"Rogue!" I spit again, and then fell silent.

Jiujiu, "Why didn't you tell me that Chunrui entered the palace?" If she knew that Chunrui had entered the palace, she would definitely take her away when she became Xiao Jincheng's concubine.

Yeluqi slowly put away the smile on the corner of his mouth, and sighed softly, "You can't take her away." He seemed to see what he was thinking, looked at me and said, "That time not only did I go back to Khitan, but the emperor also I went to look for you, but he was one step behind me, I saved you, but Chunrui was saved by him." Yeluqi was afraid that I would complain and explained lightly, "Afterwards, the emperor learned from her that you died before you died. He sent people around to search for your whereabouts, but later he named Chun Rui a nobleman, but he didn't favor him, and he just wanted to force you to show up."

I stared at her blankly and didn't speak. He looked at me and said, "Chunrui is willing. You should know better than me that no one is forcing you. I deliberately concealed you before because I didn't want you to be sad because of Chunrui's matter." , but when I heard the children around me say that you were called into the palace by the officers and soldiers, I didn't think of stopping you, because if you don't want to, no one can force you, and you entered the palace just because you couldn't let go."

His gaze penetrated me, "To this day, you have made a pair of your most important people, is this the purpose of your entering the palace?"

I listened to him talking continuously but didn't say a word. I just looked at the man in front of me indifferently, pretending to be strong, but my heart had already collapsed. If I could, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't, even if No matter how painful or bitter, I don't want to cry, I can't!
"You are so timid, why didn't you recognize him? Now that you have entered the palace, why didn't you go to see him? Because of this face? Are you afraid that he won't like such an ordinary face?" His voice became cold and hard When I got up, every sound of questioning attacked my sore spot, and I denied it loudly, "No!"

I'm not afraid of seeing my face because of him, I just want to live again, I want to live for An Huaixin, but I can't deny that it's really painful for me to live like this now!
Yeluqi suddenly rushed forward and grabbed my hand, "Okay, then I will take you to see him now, tell him that you are An Huaxin, and tell Chunrui that you are her master!"

"Don't..." For the first time in such a panic, I wanted to get rid of his tightly holding my hand, but I couldn't get rid of it no matter what, and the pain was like a heart-pounding pain all over my body.

Seeing my frantic struggle, he immediately let go of my hand, allowing me to fall fiercely to the ground, with my hands propped on the ground, tears streaming down quietly, dripping to the ground, the back of my hand, "No... I don't want to go, I'm cowardly, I'm cowardly, I'm stupid, I'm timid, I'm smart, but so what?"

He looked at me who was talking to himself, and finally couldn't bear to squat down, "I'm sorry." He said it too harshly!

"He hates me, why did he run away, why didn't he wait for him, since he didn't die, why didn't he come to him! With so much hate, why do I still show up? Forget about me, why don't you just treat me as dead? "My voice was unspeakably bitter, "You let me appear, don't you know how ugly my face is now? How can he, as the king of a country, have such a queen?!"

Yes, I know, I know why Xiao Jincheng has been slow to stand up, no matter how I lie to myself, I know that the small airport Nanheng is waiting for me, he is waiting for me, but I can't, I can't show up again!
Yeluqi suddenly rubbed me into his arms. I looked at him in surprise and wanted to struggle, but he held me tightly in his arms. His voice was very calm, "Your appearance is not everything about you. No matter what you become How, in my heart will always be that charming An Huai Xin!"