Dark Rift of the Elves

Chapter 73 Part.2
Soon, he went back to school.

Of course I live in my own bedroom,

It is natural to accept the strange gaze.

Hey, is he a pervert?

Or a lunatic?

They say so.

Li Mu closed the door and leaned against it.

The commotion outside grew louder.

Li Mu lowered his head.

Yes, I'm a pervert and a lunatic.

I admit it.

I've tried many things to make me look like a boy.

But I found that,
I never knew myself,
It's like I don't know my body.

My hair is getting longer and I can't cut it.

The face is getting more and more beautiful, and I can't ruin it.

They are mine and myself.

I have only myself.

The light rain fell on the protruding eaves of the window,
It dripped down the window.

A gust of wind blew over, knocking open the window,
The rain was blown in,
Li Mu sat on the ground,

by the bed,

Empty eyes stared at the dim skylight.

The wind blew his hair, and a drop of rain hit the corner of his eye, and slid down the arc of his cheek,
as if weeping,
but,

not at all.

The doctor is here again and he keeps urging me to get a retest.

His eyes are soft.

in my heart,
It was empty, as if something had been lost.

Actually, I hope my mother dies, right?

Then I can be unscrupulous,
Then I have no burden,
Then I don't feel guilty.

But I don't want my mother to die,

I love her,
Love her more than anyone.

A long time has passed,
As if going through a cycle,
final frame at
2017 11 Month 28 Day.

the weather is very bad,
Hot and cold.

The air is not good either,
A blue air pollution alert was issued just a few days ago.

What happened to this world?
Li Mu has gotten used to it,
Accustomed to strange eyes,

Accustomed to sarcastic words,
Get used to a person's world.

He no longer struggles with scissors and his hair,

I no longer poke my cheek with an awl,

none of this works,

He admitted it.

He bought a white Hanfu,

Of course it's men's.

very beautiful,
Hope rekindled in his heart.

No matter where he goes, there will be a landscape, and everyone will be watching him.

Photos of him are circulating online.

beautiful,

The title is,
The most beautiful woman in costume.

what a sarcasm
I'm obviously a boy.

Li Mu didn't smile,

Never.
He bought a flagon,
Like the one in a costume drama,
There is white wine in it.

At first I wanted to show off,

later,

He doesn't care anymore.

toward his throat,
He took a sip of wine.

Perhaps someone has been looking for him during this time,

exchanged money for his body,
or various,
Dirty deal.

dirty?

Hehe, who knows,
he does not know,

don't care,

didn't pay attention,

no memory.

Mom, I miss you.

I miss you so much.

I miss your warm embrace,
I miss your loving smile,
I miss your pampering indulgence,
Mom, I miss you.

But he never went back,
He was afraid to see his mother,
because he was disappointed,

disappointed in myself,

He was afraid that his mother would see himself like this,

That would disappoint mom.

Well, to put it this way,

No one loves his mother more than him,
nobody.

I started to care about what people around me think.
I can't help it

Because I live in this world,
Whether it is needed or not,

I long to be needed,
I long to be recognized,

Not because of my ability,

But because of my people.

I want someone to identify with my soul
Yes, soul.

but,

I can't find an interesting soul,
I can't find a compassionate soul,
I can't find a loving soul,
Neither can mom.

i desire,
longing to be loved,

longing for sorrow,

I want to prove that

I'm not here
Instead I am here.

(End of this chapter)