Next, Shen Er, what's your business?

Chapter 590 The Light in My Heart

That is simply a chilling abominable soul.This existence of self-loathing and hatred of others intertwined has a very bitter taste.

The sorrow is gone.

Joy is gone.

Anger is gone too.

All that's left is hate, hate, hate.

The deepest, darkest emotions gnawed at Shinji's heart.

That is the real body of Caludon, a madness that is more terrifying than falling into hell.

The head seemed to be broken, and the body temperature was gradually being stripped away.

The five senses are destroyed by the injected things.

Unbearable darkness.

Unbearable ugliness.

People can't help but want to die.

But, not dead yet.

Because there are more important things to do than death, than this darkness.

There is another obsession supporting it.

Revenge, kill Amakusa Shiro Tokisada.

Kill Amakusa Shiro.

Kill Amakusa.

Kill.

kill!

kill!

kill!

The black mist condensed into substance, and the boundless darkness enveloped Shen Er's body, wantonly devouring his spirit base and changing his shape.

You can become whatever you want.

Be it a monster, a demon, or something else.

The consciousness became deeper and deeper, and the colors in front of him became more and more monotonous, leaving only endless black.

Come on, come on, I'll take it all.

As long as it kills that bastard, no matter what the cost—

Just before the last trace of clarity passed away, a voice passed through the boundless darkness and reached the deepest part of the soul.

"That won't work."

Huh?This voice, Justissa...

"It can't be like this, Shinji."

It's really your voice, Yustisa, it's good to hear your voice again.

Wait a minute, I'll be seeing you soon.

I'll kill that bastard right away to avenge you.

"Can't!"

Ah, I know you are worried about me, and you are thinking of me wholeheartedly.

But, you are no longer here, so I can do whatever I want.

"Shen Er, wake up!!! Look at me! Listen to my voice! Feel it with your heart!"

see... hear... feel...

The eyelids opened a wind element, and there was still an abominable darkness in front of him, but there was an extra light at the end of that darkness.

pure light.

Pure white light.

warm light.

This light is very familiar to Shen Er, it is the light that has been with him since he came to this world, and has never been separated for almost a moment.

"Justissa."

Called the name again.

"Well, it's me."

Accompanied by this response, it has been silent for many days, as if the long-lost connection suddenly became active, and the magic power, spirit, and soul fetters miraculously recovered.

"Justissa, is that really you?"

"Well, it's me, it's me, Shinji."

The same voice, the same gentleness, and the same response made Shen Er feel like he was in a dream.

"Yes, but you are not..."

"I'm not here anymore, am I?"

Tell the cruel truth calmly, even if he doesn't even care about life and death, he doesn't want to face it.

Silence, dare not answer, he is afraid that if he answers, this dream will wake up.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, this is not a dream, I'm still here, the connection between you and me is the best proof."

"Before that, I... why couldn't I sense you, why, why didn't you come to me..."

"Because I was locked up by Kishua in a closed different space, and I was released just now."

"Locked up? Gem old man? Sure enough, he and that bastard are in the same group, and they planned to get us here!!!"

Because of the restoration of the contract, Shen Er's withered state of mind was injected with new vitality, and even his thinking became much clearer.

"What are these two bastards planning? Are they really going to destroy the world?"

"Of course that's impossible. Through the communication over the past few days, I can see that these two people are definitely not lunatics who want to destroy the world. They love this world more than 90.00% of people."

"Wait, you said love? How do you explain the wish that bastard said?"

"Actually, the information you told me is not wrong. Amakusa Shiro's wish has always been the immortality of all human beings. From Einzbern's point of view, this is relief. From another point of view, this may not be a kind of destruction, Are humans without death still humans?"

It makes so much sense, it's speechless.

"Then what are they doing for? Torturing you and me so much?"

Thinking of the life of the past few days, Shen Er's heart was filled with an unknown fire.

"Kishua's purpose has been told to us long ago. To collect the data of the uncontaminated Great Holy Grail, and to make me think about whether the Einzbern family's thousand-year persistence is really what I want."

"Where's that bastard?"

Yustisa hesitated for a moment, then replied, "It seems to be related to you?"

"Is it related to me? Did I recruit him to provoke him? Don't I want to practice hard, collect data, and go back after making soy sauce? As for messing with me like this? Can't you tell me well? ? I can cooperate with you if necessary? How does that bastard explain?"

"Neither Amakusa Shiro Tokisada nor Kishua told me the specific reason, they just said that this is a trial, and you will be told the reason after the trial."

"Trial, hehe, trial, is there such a trial?"

Hearing this explanation, Shen Er let out a series of laughter, some were cold, some were miserable, as if it was broken, which made Yustisa very distressed.

"You know, in just a few days, I died, lived and died, and lived and died again. I don't know how I survived."

"I... know, because I am the same. I have been looking at you, but there is no way to go to your side. I am in pain as much as you are in pain."

"Yestissa..."

"So, do whatever you want, no matter what decision you make, I will support you. It's just——I don't want you to be swallowed up by hatred and turn into a monster."

Yustisa's prayer was transmitted to Shen Er's heart unreservedly along the connection between the two, warming his soul that had endured countless pains and was tossed and riddled with holes.

"Is there still time? I have already used the 'God's Punishment of the Wild Boar', and I don't know how long I can last with this little awareness."

"It's too late, as long as you have firm will and believe in yourself, you will not be affected by hatred at all, because this is your ability, and it is also the reason why Kishua chose you."

"My ability?"

"Close your eyes, relax your mind, and feel carefully. What surrounds you is not only hatred, but also more longing."

The pure white radiance flowed into Shen Er's consciousness, guiding his consciousness to sink and sink.

"I'm never the only one who cares about you. This is the source of your real strength, the magic that belongs only to you."

Then, Shen Er saw that the light hidden in the deepest part of his heart was exactly his origin.

(End of this chapter)