The Queen of Romance: A Summer of Sweet Classics

Chapter 58 Goodbye Lover
Lan Shi's visit increased the frequency of footsteps in the ward.The people who came to visit me the next morning came one after another, some of which I had never seen before, and I had no impression of them, but Gu Yanzhi stopped them outside the ward.There are also some people, such as Jiang Yannan, who have the same expression when they step into the ward, with a calm expression and a relaxed tone: "Hey, I heard that Doctor A City King asked you to come here. Your ability It's getting bigger and bigger."

Gu Yanzhi was feeding me apples, without raising his eyelids, he said, "You don't even bring a fruit basket, how dare you come?"

"That thing damages my handsome and majestic demeanor and manner." After Jiang Yannan finished speaking lightly, she turned her head to look at me and said with a smile, "Du Wan seems to be in a good mood today."

I said, "I'm in a good mood every day."

"This is the best. No matter what kind of disease you have, you must maintain a good mood. This is more effective than taking any medicine. Especially if you see that there is a surname Gu beside you. Although he is only your ex-husband, you two have nothing to do now relationship, but if you bite him on the shoulder twice when you are sad, I think he is quite happy in his heart, what do you think?"

Gu Yanzhi said calmly, "It's as if you've never been divorced."

Jiang Yannan said, "But I'm remarried now. Are you happy?"

Gu Yanzhi said: "I really feel silent condolences for Madam Zun."

I said:"……"

I've always wanted to find a chance to be alone with Jiang Yannan and ask him about Yan Yu's current situation.Finally, he spotted the time when Gu Yanzhong was called out by the doctor halfway.However, before I mentioned Yan Yu's name, Jiang Yannan had already said leisurely, "Yan Yu is not dead, he is still alive and kicking in City A. You don't have to worry about him."

"..." I said, "I didn't want to ask him, I just wanted to say that the weather is really nice today."

Jiang Yannan grinned: "The weather in T city is pretty good every day recently. Since you don't want to ask, I won't talk about it. Maybe Gu Yanzhi will tell you one day, why should I worry about these things. Let's go."

I was about to take a step after I finished speaking, and I groaned behind him. Seeing that he didn't respond, I groaned again with a higher pitch.Jiang Yannan finally stopped and turned around: "Gu Yanzhi went to City A to look for Yan Yu, and went to Chengdu the same day after finding it. It is said that the two people almost got into a fight when they met in the clinic. But Yan Yu knew Gu Yanzhi at the first sight. Stop it, the attitude of pleading guilty is not bad, and Gu Yanzhi was anxious to find you, and Yan Yu provided your location at the first time, which allowed him to escape. Otherwise, how could it be written off so easily?"

"..."

"But having said that, little classmate Du Wan, I still admire your courage. Being sick is so big that you can keep silent from the beginning to the end. You made a resolute decision and then got a divorce and ran to the ends of the earth. You are so fearless. Knowing the spirit and behavior of Gu Yanzhi to those outside who don't know the inside story, it will appear that Gu Yanzhi is not trustworthy, do you know?"

"..."

"But then again," he said with a little emotion, "It's not easy to see Gu Yanzhi lose face once in his lifetime."

When Li Xiangnan came over around eleven o'clock, I was playing checkers with Gu Yanxia.In the eyes of others, the posture of the two of us at this moment is probably very strange: I am sitting in front of the table, my eyes are focused on the chess pieces, Gu Yanzhi is holding the book in his right hand, flipping through the book while waiting for me to play chess casually , He often came back after turning through three pages of the book, just in time for him to play chess.I'm already used to his high IQ, and I was startled when I heard Li Xiangnan's voice suddenly: "Hey, how can you despise other people's IQ like this?"

He was holding two fruit baskets on the left and right, the sum of the horizontal lengths was almost as wide as the vertical ones.Gu Yanzhi glanced back, apparently also noticed this phenomenon, and said lightly: "You brought Jiang Yannan's share too?"

I couldn't help laughing out loud.Gu Yanzhi put the book aside and left the room.Li Xiangnan put down the fruit basket, looked back, turned back again, hesitated to speak: "Why is he so easy to talk today?"

I hesitated for a while, but said honestly: "His subtext should be, this is because I have troubled you for so long, and I reluctantly let you see one last time."

"..."

Li Xiangnan looked at me for a while, then slowly said: "You didn't cause me any trouble. I just want you to have a good life. Whether I participate or not, as long as you can live a safe and happy life, that is the best result."

His tone was calm when he said this.I originally thought that if he said something sensational, I would give him all the cold jokes to block back.But when he did this, he couldn't utter all the excuses he asked me to prepare. He opened his mouth and couldn't speak for a while.I heard him say again: "When the flood came that day, everyone was safe. Most of it was due to the two helicopters brought by Gu Yanzhi. Later, some media wrote articles, saying that the helicopter took risks to save people, and everyone was united. .”

I nod.He also said: "But I heard that the loss in the town is not small. A lot of chickens, ducks, cows, etc. were washed away, as well as those things grown in the yards of various families. Yanyan's family was not spared either."

I nodded again.

Li Xiangnan was quiet for a while, and said: "Forget it, it doesn't matter whether you listen to these things or not. Gu Yanzhi probably told you about the important ones a long time ago. If I say it again, you will be annoyed."

He chatted in this tone, which finally made me feel wrong: "What's wrong with you?"

Li Xiangnan was quiet for a while.Then he said: "Two days ago when you were still in a coma, Gu Yanzhi asked someone to sign a contract with the Li family. The amount of the contract is not small, which is very beneficial to our family. I know what he means. So From now on, you don’t have to feel indebted.”

I said, "You don't need to be so detached. I know what kind of person you are."

The corner of his lips curled up, and he smiled.He looked up at the ceiling, then looked out of the window, finally turned his gaze back, and said slowly: "I came here this time to tell you that this may indeed be the last time we meet recently, Du Wan. Next week I will be sent to the UK by the government, and I will come back after finishing my Ph.D. in five years. Maybe I won’t come back. This matter has been agreed a long time ago, and I didn’t want to go. Now that I think about it, there seems to be nothing else to do besides study anyway, so let’s go.”

There was a moment of silence in the house.I said, "That's fine. You should."

He hummed, raised his eyebrows and stopped talking.He clasped his hands and was silent for a while, then stood up to say goodbye.Li Xiangnan walked a few steps, stopped again, turned around, and told me seriously: "Du Wan, people outside say that you are very strong, and you are indeed very strong when you are in front of me, but I think the truth should not be true." That's right. It's impossible for you not to be afraid of something like cancer, but you think that except for Gu Yanzhi who can share your sorrows and joys, no one else is qualified to take on it, right? You are actually quite a proud and neat person. Girl."

I was speechless again by what he said.Li Xiangnan walked to the door without turning his head, stopped suddenly, turned around, and said with a bit of gritted teeth: "Hey, I have to say, except for that face, Gu Yanzhi is really disgusting. It's useless."

"..."

I had radiation therapy the next morning.From then on, I began to receive various non-stop treatments.I tried my best to ignore all kinds of discomfort, and tried my best to really improve my mood as Jiang Yannan said.And cooperate with various treatment methods and doctor's orders, chemotherapy, radiotherapy, and emerging biological immunotherapy.Constantly being discussed by experts, blood draws, partial irradiation, and swallowing a lot of pills, this situation was a bit difficult, but it still lasted for more than half a month.After half a month, the condition did not improve much, but fortunately, there were no signs of aggravation at the same time.

At this point, I can't ask for more, and I'm already satisfied with the result.Gu Yanzhi is as calm as ever, I don't know how much effort he has spent in places that I can't notice, and he won't take the initiative to tell me the behind-the-scenes things.All I know is that he sleeps far less than I do these days and can clearly see him getting less.

I finally brought up the topic of death with Gu Yanzhi one night.

This is something we've been trying to avoid these days.Carefully pretending that the fourth stage of bone cancer is just a minor illness, it is just a little toss in the middle, and it will definitely get better in the end.Like miracles are easier to happen than death.But everyone knows that it's not that easy.

I thought about it for a long time, even during the radiotherapy, how to express this question so that it would not appear so shocking.However, this question itself is like a sharp knife, no matter how you cover it up, it can't stop it from piercing into the heart of people's heart: "Gu Yanzhi, if, I'm just saying, if I really die in more than a month, what will you do?" Woolen cloth?"

He froze for a moment when he gently kneaded my wrist, and after a while, he said in a low voice: "There is no such thing as what if."

"But you know very well that what I'm talking about is not a hypothesis. Miracles and death, such a simple matter of probability, you will not be unclear. We always have to face the facts." I paused, trying to make my tone lighter, "Actually, time can heal everything. You may feel very hurt now, but if you go on like this slowly, after many years, you will feel that these old things are nothing. You can live happily Good. I wish you could be like that."

His waist tightened suddenly, his strength was great, and his voice was low: "But I can't do this, Wanwan. I told you that if there is a funeral, I will be with you. I also told you, no matter what When the time comes, I can't let you suffer. I can't let you alone. "

"But I hope you can live. I did so many things before, just to make you not do it. I can be alone, no problem." My voice was a little unstable, and the emotions I tried to hide were getting stronger and stronger. The more I can't stop it, "I have always wanted you to live as long as possible in this world. Can you think about it, how could I want you to stay with me?"

He did not speak for a moment.I looked up at him, eyes full of pleading.Eager to hear a word from him.After a while, I heard him whispering: "Since you can't do this, then live with me well."

What he said was really domineering.I was so anxious that I wanted to cry: "But how can I manage the affairs of God of Death, you are so serious..."

Before he finished speaking, his lips were sealed.The warm and soft touch, rolling gently between the teeth, the long-lasting feeling.I don't know how long it took to be let go.I heard Gu Yanzhi's faint voice, and said in a very firm tone: "No but. Wanwan, you don't belong to Death, you can only belong to me. It's as simple as that."

After that day, we never brought up the subject again.The weather slowly turns from July to August, the time of year when life is at its most exuberant.The cannas in the hospital are blooming sequentially, fiery red and gorgeous, and each petal is blooming very well.After my immune cells were reinfused into the human body, all the indicators of my body did not change much, but the bone pain suddenly disappeared overnight, the phenomenon of mental fatigue disappeared, and even my appetite became better.

This long-lost feeling of body relaxation makes people have no time to think about other things. I wanted to jump out of bed before the fracture healed, but Gu Yanzhi picked it up and stuffed it back into the quilt.I raised my face and tried to struggle seriously: "I feel much better. I really want to see the flowers in the yard outside today, can't I?"

He looked at me condescendingly for a while, then leaned down and kissed me lightly on the forehead.Slowly said: "Wanwan, let's go home from the hospital today, okay?"

His movements are very gentle, and his tone is low and soft, as if he has been brushed by down feathers.This way of treating me as if I were a weak newborn baby.As I thought about it, the vigor of being alive and kicking just now disappeared involuntarily, and then I looked a little weak, so I said softly to him, "Okay."

I did not ask him the reason for his sudden decision to leave the hospital.Just believe he always has a reason.It's like these days when he handed me a lot of pills every day, or took me for blood tests, infusions or radiation treatments, etc., I didn't ask him about the specific effects of these medicines on the disease.

At this time, I even feel that I no longer believe in these things very much.I just believe in Gu Yanzhi.

I believe he did his best.I have seen blue-eyed whites among the doctors who came to consult, and I have also seen southerners with strong Cantonese accents. I also heard from the nurses that at six o'clock in the morning that day, I was sent back from the west in a coma When I was in T City, the chief physicians of the city's top hospital gathered in a hurry and consulted on my situation for ten hours without eating or drinking.

Gu Yanzhi never told me about these things.These days, we rarely talk about pain.Most of them are jokes and funny stories.Gu Yanzhi never took the initiative to bring up this topic, let alone the word death.Only occasionally when I went to see a doctor, I heard Gu Yanzhi talking with the doctor. His speech was fast and clear, and what he said were all technical terms or abbreviations about the disease. I could vaguely know that he understood my disease. Even far more than myself.

All along, Gu Yanzhi has done many things.I can only see the tip of the iceberg.Just like if there is no Lanshi, I would not know that he has donated to charity, let alone know the reasons for his donation to charity, and I would not know that he contacted foreign experts and invited top doctors.In the past, he did those things that turned his hands into clouds and turned his hands into rain. Every time he was asked, he would only downplay it.Now there are numerous reports about Gu Yanzhi outside, and the consultations are non-stop, but in this ward, it is still calm and breezy.

Ye Xunxun once criticized Gu Yanzhi for being arbitrary.But I believe that this is all based on the premise that Gu Yanzhi fully understands my character.He knew it was the best thing for me to do.

Given the discharge, I was finally able to take off my hospital gown and change into my own.The cheeks in the mirror are surprisingly rosy today, and finally the pale feeling of these days is gone.When I got into the car, I thought about it and said to him: "Hey, I suddenly want to eat the pasta from the shop in the east of the city, can I?"

An hour later, we turned from the west of the city to the east of the city, and the car slowly stopped in front of the Italian restaurant.

In fact, after being tossed by radiation and chemotherapy these days, my appetite has basically been destroyed to the point that it is better than nothing.Even though I am in a good state today, my appetite is still the same, and I put down the tableware after only a few bites.Most of the time he was still chatting with Gu Yanzhi.The street outside the floor-to-ceiling windows is clean and quiet, with few pedestrians.When I looked up, the sky was blue and the clouds were light, and the sun was rolling lively in the air.Gu Yanzhi and I sat side by side, talking about illogical topics.In the middle, he grabbed his fingers as if nothing had happened, but he quickly held them backhanded.Then he scratched his palm, and he squeezed it tighter.The most familiar small movements, the most familiar lingering breath, the most familiar people around.

I said, "Hey, I haven't asked you all this time, do you think I talk a lot sometimes?"

He said, "Would you like to hear the truth or lie?"

be honest."

"Honestly, a little bit," he said.

"..." I stared at him for a while, and then said, "Then do you still think I'm naive sometimes?"

"Are you going to tell the truth or lie this time?"

I said categorically, "It's a lie."

He propped his chin with one hand, looked at me a little funny, and his profile was very nice.I said, "Whether it's true or not, don't you know that when people ask this kind of question, they just want to hear something nice?"

He said: "Wanwan, the luckiest thing that happened to me was that I found you in the mountains 11 years ago. No one in this world is more suitable for me than you, just like you talk, no matter how much or how little you say, in fact It doesn't matter, I like to listen to it, and that's fine. Childish or not, it's the same."

I said, "Are you telling a lie?"

He said, "Yes."

I think I must be full of disappointment at this moment: "Really?"

He said casually: "Fake."

"..."

We lingered in the restaurant until the afternoon before reviewing the house.Then he was carried all the way up to the second floor by Gu Yanzhi.We watched a movie together, and when we looked out, there was already a glow in the sky.When I was carried back to the bedroom by him, I heard him ask casually: "What do you want to do tonight?"

I put my arms around his neck, looked at him, and said, "You."

"..."

He lowered his eyes and looked at me.While putting me on the bed, a little smile appeared on the corner of his lips: "Yes. Let's go downstairs and have something to eat first."

I still hugged his neck and refused to let go, and tried to wrap my legs around his waist. It took some effort, but it could still be done.One arm hooked him hard, trying to make him bend down.Then whispered: "Hey, but, I want it now, what should I do?"

His voice was a little soft when he said this.I didn't dare to look at his expression at the moment.Hearing a low laugh from him, there was a hint of entanglement in the end of his words, which was enough to touch the tip of his heart.The body is slowly falling down until the back touches the sheet.In front of him are his dark eyes, with a clear smile.The voice fell on the corner of the lips with the kiss: "In this case, I will accept it as a husband."

While he was picking up the tie of my nightgown with his fingers, I fumbled at the collar button of his jacket.He grabbed his fingers and kissed in the crevices of each finger.This quickly makes people weak.I saw his eyes were dark and deep, with a clear hint of forbearance.Using both hands and feet together, they pressed tightly against his body in front of him.She clasped her hands on his back, then curled up her fingers and scratched lightly a few times.

I heard his breath getting shaky quickly.His chin was bitten moderately, and he heard his restrained voice: "Wanwan, you don't need to tease me, I can't stand it anymore."

I swallowed my tense throat and said in a low voice, "I just hope you can bear it a little more."

The next moment, kisses fell down like a flood, sucking kisses and biting.It seems to be the illusion of swallowing one mouthful.I feel a little out of breath, other than that, I want to cater to him more, but I don't know what better way to do besides hugging him tighter.

He kissed domineeringly, but the movements behind were gentle enough.I was held in his arms, coaxing me in a low voice and teasing me gently.You can feel his carefulness and care.Outside the window, the setting sun was gradually setting, and suddenly brightened, and soon the entire sky was plunged into darkness.Another day is coming to an end.The atmosphere is obviously good today, even at this moment.I still couldn't help crying.When I looked up and saw my expression reflected on the photo frame on the cabinet not far away, my eyebrows were slightly frowned, and I looked a little at a loss.

Although I didn't realize it at the beginning, after a day of precipitation, I was able to realize later that there will be no unreasonable healing in this world. The way I am now is not really a miracle.

The four words "returning light and reflecting light" are just right at this moment.

When I finally stopped, I was already a little drowsy.I don't even remember being taken to take a bath by him.In the dimness, I heard Gu Yanzhi softly say: "Wanwan, open your mouth."

I subconsciously obeyed his words, and felt that he was feeding in the warm and well-done porridge.After barely swallowing a few mouthfuls, I only felt that my throat was choked and I couldn't swallow any more.In the past, he would always patiently persuade me to take a few more mouthfuls, but this time he did not force him, and after leaving for a while, he came back quickly.As always, he pulled me out of the bed and hugged me face to face.I barely opened half of my eyelids, and before I could see his face clearly, I quickly closed them again.After a while, I felt that the strength of his arms around my waist was much stronger than before, and I couldn't help but move. He relaxed a little bit, but his chin rested on the top of my head, and the whole embrace was still tightly closed, tighter than before. , almost embedded in it.I faintly felt that he was a little unusual, but his voice was still very calm: "Hey, go to sleep."

I had a very long dream.

In the dream, I walked a long way alone, and there was a faint light ahead, but I couldn't reach the end anyway.I don't know why I have to walk this distance, it's cold and empty.Gradually, I felt my body became colder, and my steps became heavier and heavier. Finally, I saw that ray of light getting closer and closer, with my father's face faintly behind.There was a slight smile on his face, and he stretched out his arms towards me.

I called out "Dad", and this time he opened his mouth slowly and hummed.

In a trance, many childhood memories came flooding back.Like the tide, people will be submerged.I heard him speak again, with an empty echo: "Little Wan, come."

I ran over, wanting to grab his hand.Seeing that he was about to reach it, he heard Gu Yanzhi's voice in a trance.I have never heard him call my name like this before, and I tremble slightly, every tone is full of grief that is so thick and overflowing.

I stopped abruptly and looked up at my father.Behind the dazzling light, his face was vaguely still the same as it was more than ten years ago, with black hair and dark eyes, and gentle eyes.Standing there quietly, patiently waiting for me to walk over.

After a long time, I said, "Dad, I'm going to die, right?"

He looked at me, still smiling a little: "Want to go with me?"

I took a step forward subconsciously, and suddenly felt that my face was a little wet.Stretching out his hand to touch it, his face was full of water.But I clearly did not shed tears.When I raised my head again, my father's figure was slowly becoming blurred. I immediately went to grab it, but I missed it by a step.Just about to take another step forward, suddenly the whole person was hugged tightly.Shocked, he finally woke up.

The eyes that entered were Gu Yanzhi's slightly closed eyes.The lip color is almost as pale as the face.My whole body was hugged tightly by him, my fingers were intertwined, and I couldn't move a single centimeter. It was still the posture I had when I fell asleep the night before.I finally knew where the water on my face came from.Gu Yanzhi's face was calm, but there were tears seeping from the corner of his eyes.

Sudden pain in chest like suffocation.Opened his mouth and tried to call him: "Gu Yanzhi?"

The arms around his waist tightened suddenly, and he slowly opened his eyes. His gaze was fixed on my face for a long time before he said in a low voice, "Wanwan."

His voice was hoarse.The deep eyelashes were lowered, and when they were raised again, all the emotions had been covered up again.There is no wave in the ancient well.But I clearly felt his hands trembling slightly.Hold him tighter and realize that he is colder than me.

I added with some relief, "Look, I'm fine, right?"

After finishing these few words, I just feel extremely tired.But I still tried my best to show him a smile.After a pause, she approached slowly and kissed him on the lips.I found his lips were also cold.

I don't know what happened to him in his sleep just now.He has always been so calm and calm, and he has never lost his composure.But just now the corners of his eyes were obviously wet.

He is crying.I really don't want to see him like this.

But he didn't know what to say to comfort him.There was silence in the room for a while.Then he heard him speak nonchalantly: "Did you have a dream just now?"

I hummed: "And I dreamed of you."

"Dream about me?"

I paused and said, "I dreamed that you called my name, let me come back, over and over again."

He didn't speak.And I said, "Look, you really can do anything. I'm really back, right?"

After a while, he finally smiled.We intertwined our fingers and heard him whisper, "Yeah, I can do anything."

Some people say that when people are counting down the time to meet death, they will suddenly have an epiphany and become open-minded.There are many nostalgia, laughter and tears in the world, all seem insignificant at that moment, and even death is not afraid.I can't do that.Maybe it's because of too deep obsession, or other reasons, no matter how I persuade myself, I still don't want to let go.

My father once mentioned to me that before he chose to go to the mountains to support teaching, he lived in a monastery.Get up in the morning, go to class, chant scriptures, ring the bell, and visit Buddha day by day.He said that at that time he had forgotten both things and me, and never felt miserable.I asked him why he changed his mind to come to the mountains in this case. At that time, he touched my head and said to me with a smile that it was because he was too obsessed with the world and had an unfinished fate.

If in this life, because of too much obsession, the true fate is not fulfilled, it would not be a great thing.However, fate always has unsatisfactory places.My father promised me when I was young that he would protect me until I didn't need it.But he died when I was ten years old.When I was ten years old, sitting in front of his tombstone on the hill, I once thought disheartenedly that maybe his obsession with his children could not match the call of death.

But on the other hand, it seems that I have been blessed by my father all these years.Although he lost his father when he was young, he received extra care from the mayor and villagers, and met Gu Yanzhi the next year, and was led by him to leave the mountain and come to T City.The next 11 years have been smooth and safe.

Each of these changes is inextricably linked to my father.The three words Du Sicheng are like a powerful talisman. Everyone I know, including Gu Yanzhi, is related to my father.This feeling is very reassuring, as if he has been taking care of me invisibly.Although away, but everywhere.

Soon after I woke up, I was taken to the hospital again.The so-called lingering life is probably very suitable for me at this moment.In my impression, Gu Yanzhi was holding my hand from the beginning to the end, but I didn't even have the strength to respond to him, and I couldn't speak anymore.There are several medical instruments connected to his body, and there are beeping sounds from the instruments.I heard through the door panel a group of doctors gathered together for a heated discussion, and every sentence revealed an uncertain possibility.Despair is greater than life.I have never felt the approach of death so clearly, and I can almost hear the sound of the god of death rushing through the wind.

Lan Shi also rushed to the hospital.Tong Gu Yanzhi said comfortingly: "Du Wan is still alive, this is hope. What is a miracle, if you hold on to even a fraction of hope, and don't let go no matter what, a miracle can happen."

It took a long time to hear Gu Yanzhi's voice.Unusually plain: "If it can be replaced, I'd rather transfer these things to me."

Lan Shi was silent for a while, and said, "Du Wan asked Yan Yu to control your mind, don't you feel any resentment?"

"There's nothing to be resentful about." Feeling a hand lightly caressing my forehead, Gu Yanzhi's voice was low and slow, "If it were me, I would do the same."

There is a person in this world who is so transparent that I don't need to speak, he already understands everything.

I was in a trance, my eyelids were astringent, and my mind was like watching flowers on horseback, with many past things passing by.

I remembered that after the university get out of class ended, he waited at the school gate according to my request.After seeing me, she stretched out her arms towards me, smiled and wrapped me in her arms.And he once taught me how to play billiards by hand, but he was a little absent-minded when correcting my grip posture, and then he was suddenly picked up by his waist and placed on the pool table.And a long time ago, when I was on a first date, I was nervous. Although it was just a candlelight dinner, I struggled with it for a long time. I was in a daze in the cloakroom for an hour and didn't know which clothes to wear.In the end, Gu Yanzhi knocked on the door and came in.I still remember his appearance at that time, wearing a beige gray top, which lined his face like a crown jade, and his fingers were shiny and slender.He pointed to a dress casually, and when I finished changing, he suddenly dropped a necklace from his palm, pulled me to the front of the mirror, and put it on for me.At that time, his smile was beautiful, but the corners of his lips were slightly upturned, which made people feel weak in the heart.Feeling him kissing the top of my hair, his voice was low and soft: "Very beautiful."

and so on and so forth.They were all small things, but against his good-looking features, it seemed that even the light in his memory was bright and dazzling, and everything was as clear as yesterday.

There is such a person.He is always there for you.He can easily solve all your problems.He puts every detail of you in place.He is always a little tricky, but enough to rely on and trust.In front of you, he always smiles gently, calmly and calmly.

He is indifferent to everyone else.He holds you alone in his heart.He's your Aladdin's lamp alone.

I have exactly such a person.He gave me all the joys and sorrows from the age of 11 to the age of 22.Every day before I was diagnosed with bone cancer, I had this identifiable happiness.

Meeting Gu Yanzhi, I have already spent the best luck in my life.

It was hard for me to open my eyes, and I could only faintly hear the voice of Gu Yanzhi talking to me.Maybe he didn't stop, but to me, it was a little low and intermittent.I don't know how long it took before I finally heard the complete sentence: "You fell asleep when you came home yesterday, so I didn't wake you up. I forgot to tell you later that when you were not at home a while ago, I was in front of the yard. A pomegranate tree was planted next to a ginkgo tree. The secretary said it was a sweet pomegranate. I heard that according to the tradition in the mountains, it means more children and more blessings, right?"

I want to correct him, planting pomegranate trees is a tradition that only existed when the Qiang people on my mother's side got married.Not everyone in the mountains is like that.But can't make any sound.He could only hear him continue to speak slowly, his voice was hoarse, and there was a hint of effort: "The butler has boiled fish soup for you, and it will be delivered in the evening. Wanwan, you have to wake up before that time." After a pause , Repeated slowly and in a low voice, "Wanwan, I beg you, just like you did this morning, open your eyes to me and wake up."

I really wish I could open my eyes and see what he looks like at the moment.Or reach out and hug him, and tell him in a low voice that I'm actually fine.But I can't do anything.After some time, I heard him continue talking: "You can wake up, right? Yesterday when you were asleep, I discussed with God and told him that there is a child named Du Wan in this world. , her mother is from the Qiang nationality in western China. She has worked hard all her life, is beautiful and kind. Her father is Du Sicheng, who is a legend in T city, but when he was in his 20s, he went to a village in the deep mountains and stayed there for more than ten years. In the past year, she had done many good deeds, and finally she was buried in the ground because of saving other people's children. This girl named Du Wan was loved by her deceased parents very much, and they couldn't bear her to leave the world so early. And she herself is usually well-behaved, sensible, beautiful and lovely , if God still has mercy, please let her go this time. Let her try her best to look at this world. I told him at that time, if he agrees, let your hand move. Then I saw you sleeping Li, the next moment you grabbed my sleeve."

His voice was low and slow, unbelievably hoarse, very different from the past: "So, Wanwan, you can always wake up."

I was told that I wanted to cry, and I felt that he kissed my forehead, the tip of my nose, and my cheek, every inch was as light as a butterfly flapping its wings.I heard him say: "When you recover from illness, we will go back to the mountains and visit the graves of our parents. Thank them for their blessings, and this time we must thank you well. Do you agree?"

When he spoke later, his voice was slightly unsteady, and he could no longer suppress it.I felt the pain in my heart as if a deep hole had been cut, and I couldn't help myself.

How I wish this was just a dream.Nothing happened, including the cancer.The person I like, his brows and eyes are still calm and calm, and he looks unhurried.Be careless between gestures and gestures.There is a warm and just temperature in his palm, and the smile on his lips is still pretty messy.

I don't want to see him go to such lengths.

Consciousness sinks into coma.Being transferred and rescued in a trance, there are busy footsteps, conversations, and almost numb pain in the body.Gradually unable to perceive the surroundings, even the perception of being held tightly by Gu Yanzhi stagnated.I vaguely knew that this was the last drop of life.Either die, or the long-awaited miracle happens.

I feel that my whole body is bound, almost suffocating, mixed with the pain of being pulled away.Struggling very hard.Trying very hard to stay alive.Can't die.I issue such an order to myself.Harmonize all the organs of the body that can listen.Do your best to move.But there is gradually a white light in front of the eyes, a hazy area, like a layer of fog veil.I thought I would see my father again.I don't know how to describe the complex mood.He opened his mouth and called out in a low voice, "Dad."

He did not appear in sight.I raised my voice and shouted again, but I still didn't see the figure.The place was unfamiliar, and although there was light, it was cold.I tried to take a step forward, and finally heard a response, gently stopping me from moving forward: "Xiao Wan, don't go any further, stop."

I turned around following the sound.No figure.

"Dad, I can't see you."

The father's voice sounded again, but it just floated around empty, unable to find the source or any trace: "Little Wan, we must work hard to live in the future. We must live well, be content and happy."

I opened my mouth, only these few words, but inexplicably felt that these words seemed like an entrustment when I would never see you again.Inexplicably panicked, he called out "Dad".There was no further response.He yelled several times in a row, but there was only silence around him, and there was no more sound.

It seems like a long time has passed.The white light in front of him disappeared little by little until there was complete silence.The body gradually feels a little tired.With clearly identifiable pain.The last is the slow return of consciousness.The sound gradually changed from distant to nearby, and the regular sound of the beeping of the instrument was heard.And the crisp and cheerful birdsong outside the window.

The gripped fingers under the sheet moved subconsciously, and they were immediately gripped even tighter, so tight that it hurt a little.

But at the same time, it can make people confirm that this is not a dream.

After a long time, I finally gathered some strength and slowly opened my eyes.

A pair of familiar eyebrows and eyes came into view.Has deep and long eyelashes.Bright eyes.His eyes were gentle and quiet, and there was a smile on his lips.

this person.

She moved her dry lips.I said it with the greatest strength: "I heard that when you wake up, you will have fish soup to drink, right?"

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